March 16, 2015

Holy Wow, Was That a Lot of Pain!

Oh, the walls I have created in my life. What is it with this tricky energy? Silly stuff.

We are designed with amazing coping mechanisms. Things are too hard to deal with, find a solution! The problem is, they aren't always the best solutions.

Now, we get to train our energy how to cope with healthy solutions.

I just discovered within the last few weeks that I had put a wall between me and the emotions I didn't want to feel. It was a step beyond the stuffing of emotions we hear of. Not only was I “stuffing” the emotions but I was stuffing them behind the wall. I wasn't finding anything with my techniques that search for walls. Oh, maybe a few trapped energies were found when I searched for “hidden” energy but, for the most part, there was this huge wall between me and some of the greatest pain I have ever known.

I let that wall go and found some pretty intense anger. Anger is a secondary emotion, of course, and it covers the hurt. I had a huge fight with my mom. I then started expressing all of my anger at the Lord. Then I even shared with my friend about how angry I was at the Lord, finally, the anger dispelled leaving me in depression.

Why do I share this? I share this because I want you to know that you are not alone on your healing journey. It can be a painful experience as we come across some of the things that are buried in our energy. The good news is that sometimes it is easy and it can be fast.

The fight with my mom wasn't good, but the emotions are gone now. The depression ran its course and I am feeling good again. In certain areas of my life, I feel better than I have ever felt.

On the other side of pain is healing, but we cannot get there if we are unwilling to look at the pain. It doesn't mean we have to actually re-experience the pain; we just need to acknowledge that it is there. We need to be honest with ourselves as we look at what is going on.

Why are we angry? What are we afraid of? What hurt is there? Then go deeper still. What about it is scary? What about it is painful? Often we can discover our beliefs under the pain and when we know what they are, they will go away.

Under my recent pain, I was believing that everything was my fault and that I was being blamed. I was seeing fingers pointed at me, whether they were pointing or not.

It really is time for us to heal! The world is awakening. The time is now. The time to step into LOVE is now. I'm talking deep abiding self-love that opens the paths for the love of mankind. The Lord told us to love our neighbor as ourselves. How can we love our neighbors if we don't love ourselves? It's time to heal and love!

With love,

Michele Lewis
Identity Specialist

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